Saturday, April 21, 2012

Bittersweet Heartbreak.

There comes a time in your life when you think you have finally found the one. No, not when you're Ted Mosby though, then there's more than just one time you think that way. You finally begin to relate them to the silhouette of The One that you had in your dreams all this time and it all seems to make sense. You fall madly in love with them, with the fact that you have finally found who were looking for and of course, the situation. You are so overwhelmed with the happenings around you that you begin to lose yourself. Your brain seems to have been clogged by such surreal thoughts, you don't even question their existence. You are so lured by the perfectness of the moment that you get carried away in your assumptions. You begin to expect more from life and from that person. But once these expectations turn into disappointments, you sit there wondering what went wrong. 
This isn't how its supposed to be, you tell yourself. And when you realize that the person doesn't feel the same way for you, you KNOW this is just wrong. And it's just a bitter bitter heartbreak. 

Then out of nowhere, someone you had always known, comes as a savior, to make things better for you. That person has been in your life throughout but somehow went unnoticed until then. Day after day, you have beautiful conversations and  you cannot believe how similar you really are. You think similarly and at the same time, you both even complete each other's sentences. And yet, in spite of all of it being so surreal, you don't understand. Slightly later, things happen, as if by their own, beautifully knitting themselves to make the best moments of your life. You feel like you have no control over yourself or the situation and you are so surprised by all of it, that you don't even realize, that that person makes you laugh like nobody else and heals your hurting heart everyday. And when one day, at the most random moment, you notice them differently, you look back at those moments you had with them and you begin to realize what you had always known. You begin to wonder why you didn't notice them the way you do now. How someone, who is so perfect for you, could go unnoticed all this while. And then as you close your eyes and think of The One from your dreams, it's no more just a silhouette but a face - the face, you had always known, of this person from your reality. You finally know why it didn't work out with anybody else and you finally experience what you thought was only cliched, you live through those magical moments. As for the heartbreak you had a while ago, seems more like a bittersweet experience now. 

When you meet the right person, you don't really have to make attempts to impress them or have to think of ways to make them fall for you. When the time is right, the person walks into your life and the rest that happens is simply effortless and you both just fit together perfectly.

Everything happens for a reason. Relationships have a way of failing when they are not right. The wrong ones who you end up liking, have a way of leaving after a while, only to make way for the right person to come along under the right circumstances and at the right time; to make all your bitter heartbreaks turn sweet. They come into your life because they were meant to. They take care of you like no one ever has and love you more than anyone else in the world and you know they will save your heart from breaking, ever again.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Keeping Secrets.

I see it in your eyes,
Every time you look at me,
I hope you realize,
It's not that hard to see.

You see me catching my breath,
Every time you hold my gaze,
We know what lies underneath,
We know what has set us ablaze.

Sitting by so close,
We don't utter too many words,
As we fret to disclose,
What the silence has already spoken of.

I begin with my stories,
I then tell you of my plans,
I share with you all my worries,
As I think of you as my man.

You tell me your dreams, 
And your eyes meet mine,
The time pauses, it seems,
As our hearts intertwine. 

In this moonlit night,
There isn't much to say,
In this moment we're infinite,
We are flying away.

This moment is so beautiful,
though in a moment it will flee,
I try to capture it in words,
but it is indescribable to me.

As the time flies by,
Its time for us to leave,
You embrace me,
And give me more to believe.

We are meant to be,
No one will ever deny,
If we think this isn't love,
We'd probably lie.

We say the goodbyes,
Our hearts say so much more,
Words unspoken have said,
Everything we'd asked for.

When thoughts keep you company.

There are so many reasons why you think. In thoughts, you can travel to the past, to the most cherished memories that you've stored in your heart. You can be with someone, who is no more a part of your life. Or you can just travel ahead to a desired tomorrow and build up a something that you so badly crave for. 
Your thoughts are a temporary getaway from reality. They make you dream.
And thinking about a certain someone you love so much, makes you realize that person's worth in your life.
There's more to love than just claiming that person as yours. When you have deeply rooted feelings for someone, you find yourself being happy with the smallest of the things, like when you randomly have a dream about him, when he wishes you a good morning, calls up first to wish you on your birthday or when unwell, he keeps calling to check on you. Even a 'Hello' here and there, everyday, seems to relieve your heart. And even if he's away and you don't get to talk to him, you find yourself smiling, only thinking about him. 

I think about him quite often. It has become a part of my daily routine and also, it is one of my most favorite things to do. I think about the time we met, our conversations, his smile. I think of him when I miss him and at the most random times. When I am having a hard day, I suddenly get reminded of something that he had once said, and it helps.. even though he isn't really there. I hear a song and it takes me back to a certain moment I had with him, and I find myself being happy getting to relive it in a way. When I get lonely, his thoughts are always there to keep me company. 

I think about him every night and day, he's a habit that I just can't seem to get enough of. Everything he does or says is like magic to me, makes me smile right that moment. 
And all of it somehow makes me feel better, about myself, about us.
It helps me hold onto the hope, the hope of witnessing the tomorrow my thoughts have created, a memory that is yet to be lived.

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